Week...-.-

Monday till Friday wasn't a whole pleasant weekday at all... I had UTs again, worst of all, the intensive study I had done during the whole week

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Wasn't enough sleep but forcing my way through the whole week to perform in a tip-top condition. At the end, down with flu on Friday..-.-

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On Thurs after school, went to watch House bunny with W35K. Nothing much though, just some funny scenes.. I wanted to watch Max Payne with some of them. But we just listened and accompanied those who wanted to watch House bunny though..-.-

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Friday wasn't pleasant day at all.

Serious case of Runny nose, sniffing myself all the way as though i'm sniffing instant glue.

Some unhappy and complicated events went on.

Seriously miserable and i hope not to talked about it.

Makes life difficult and I hope that I can forget it all and wash my hands off.

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~.::TODAY::.~

Today was a big day, Saturday, which I attended a wedding dinner of my paternal relative's.

The place where i attended the wedding was held at a newly developed hotel in Tanglin, near Orchard, called St.Regis.

Soooooooooo Damn high class. 6-stars yer know?!

Service was so damn good. They opened the entrance door for you, people working in there are greeting you whenever they sees you, serving, guiding and attending to you for any kind of help you might have. Even if you are going to the restroom, someone will be postitioned there, asking you whether are you attending the restroom, guide you to the restroom and opening the main door for you to enter the restroom.

When I first went upstairs, outside the ballroom, during the cocktail session where the serve little appetizers and drinks, I'm like OMG!!!

Everyone's in the best suit and coat, ladies in their ballroom dresses, scarves and jewelleries on them. Everyone's so formal!

Greeted some relatives, slack around till 12.50pm then entered the ballroom.

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It was the most fascinating part of the day. Whole place was tall, big, grand, elegant, luxurious and whatever you can think of for a 6-star high class place like this. =)

The food's nice, everyone's friendly.

Talked to an australian couple who just migrated to Singapore for years, the guy was a stockbroker, profession of doing banking and finance, once working with the bridegroom of the day before.

Great time talking to him =)

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~.::Main issue::.~

While i was looking arounnd fascinated by the environment i was in after settling down around the table, turned around and at the instant, first time saw an Perfect-angel among the crowd...

She was so beautiful!!! >.<

When i saw her, my heart's like going 500bpm, my mind's shrieking,"SSSSSTRIIIIIKE!!!"

She had long black hair, fair complexion, her dedicated looks and elegant appearance.. AHH~

Indeed an angel.

She seems younger than me, maybe younger by somewhat.., 2 or 3 years old?

Shorter than me, my seriously i swear upon my name, i daresay she's the most beautiful angel I've ever seen. =X

(maybe one of the few.. hehe)

Didn't get the chance to interact though... around with her parents and grandma.

At first she was sitting around a table nearby, which i can get to see her clearly and upclose.

Too bad, she moved away, instructed by her parents and went to another table.. (saddened)

But i still get to see her.. hehe

Wanted to talk to her but no chance at all.. But i think we managed to get eye contact ? hehe?

(ahh.. her bright and beautiful eyes)

YAY

I think i smiled abit. Did i? Did i not? BAH forgotten.. T.T so mesmerized.. ah~

Dunno what's her name and i've never talked.. except eye contacts..

What confuses me is that, is she a VERY DISTANT RELATIVE (unlikely but possible but bad), or is she a RELATIVE (very bad), or daughter of a particular family which her parents are the friend of the wedded couple(good and hope so)?

I solemnly swear and hope that i can see her again, either on the streets or another big event like wedding dinner or whatsoever though... T.T

(if only she was alone during a particular time and i can talk to her)

((but how to approach her at the start!!! *panics*))

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After the meal, while setting off for home (still mesmerized and missing her),

when i was exiting the ballroom, she was around too, we exchanged eye contact again and too bad, we are both quiet and was pushed on by the crowd and she was guided away by her grandmother i guess..

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Went home by train then by dad's car.. Home sweet home.

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Her looks, especially the face shall never disappear from my mind. If only i have a memory recorder, to record and project out the visual image ^^ awww... haiz.. T.T misses her greatly..

Moi Week

For the whole week, hasn't been quite pleasant though..-.-

UT season's up again, forced me to be stuck in school and facing my lappy studying 6Ps and Quizzes.

Nothing much special, except that my Tuesdays and Thursday are abnormally free (no polo).

Basically, no pleasannt but smooth though.

I got 4 As and 1 B for D.G.!

WOOT

The tide's coming back.. XD

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Saturday and Sunday, had IVP championships in Toa Payoh (woots TPY v^^v)

Finally met the other swimmers of my school, and it turns out that i know them!

Wanted to wake up at 5.30 and reach the pool by 7.30am. In the end, it turns out to be, i woke up at 7.30..-.-

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Benjamin Kheng, Swimfast swimmer

Julien, ACE swimmer.

They are just pros. LOL

Saturday's event wasn't pleasing, my 100m free missed by 1 sec from best time.. 1.04mins. -.-

(not a long dist. swimmer though..-.-)

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Sunday, was the best day.

(i still woke up late...-.- 7am...-.-)

After doing warm-up lap swims, went to the RP area to rest.

Slept there for half an hour while the technical problems goes on.

In the end, the touch-board's not gonna work...

DAMN

After moments of deperate waitings, 50m breast event finally arrived.

Achieved P.B. once again. 35sec. Woots.

Gonna improve on and on.. like.. 34..33..32..31..30..29... blah blah blah..

Then minutes later once again, 50m free arrived too! Bwahahaha

(supposedly Li Ning's event.. LOL)

UNFORTUNATELY..I swam 27.30sec.. Position 8th in the event. 1st guy was 24sec. 2nd guy was supposedly another 24sec. But he got DQed..-.-so everything moved up. Then i became 7th.

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Luckily, i was given the chance ot swim the 4 x 50m free relay, and i'm going the 1st leg.

Made used of the 50m and swam and almost reached P.B., 26.86sec.. P.B. was 26.15 back then (almost 25sec..><).

What's worst is that when i used this timing of 26.15 to sub into the individual 50m event, i could actually achieve a 5th position!

What's worst, the new second place swimmer in the individual 50m free, is a 26sec swimmer too! dammit. Just that stupid touch, i can actually achieve a 2nd place. -.-

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Anyways, i've sort of stabilised my timing as i swam 26 once again. But i can't confirm that as i'm always unlucky of not having my timing taken on touch-board for 50 free...-.-

Next year, there's gonna be a greater threat. If, two of my other friends make it to poly, I'll have a hard time making it to 2nd place though..-.-

NO WORRIES! They improve, i'll improve too!

*ROAR*

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End of the day, bathed then set off for Lunch at subway.

Subway-Meltz is just the best.. ^^

After lunch, Jerome and Dharsy forced me, making me no other alternative to take, had to go for polo training after hours from lunch

Went to Jerome's house's neighbourhood, downstairs, slept on the benches to kill time.

Then went back to TPY complex again for training till 9pm

F***ING tired.

Saw Johnny-da-"almighty and power-rights-thirsty"

Spoils my day just by looking at him, having him around..

Then, had some meaningless match as revision for the tactics..

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~.::Home Sweet Home::.~

Reached home, unpacked my bag, slumped into the sofa and rested

Minutes later, played the piano.. Feeling kinda bored. Trying to learn a new song.. Sick of playing the same old songs over and over again..

Then, shut the piano and had a drink of Orange Juice.

Curse F*** dammit. ?`-=[]\l;',./">~!@#$%^&*()_+{}:"<>?`-=[]\l;',./

Accidentally broke my favourite mug after drinking it.

Freaking another issue to spoil my day. idiotic.

Now typing this blog..

Sunday my-"Times"

Slept like a pig but dragged myself up after the night's darkness.

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The night's chat still flash in my mind. Not haunting but flashing every now and then.

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"It'll be over soon. I'm fine. This is my life and I controls it. Though i can't control fate, but every path of Life and Fate are created after every new decisions made at the end of every previous paths (situations) that I journeyed before. When it's fated to be with, bond it with. But if it's not, forget it. Carry on walking and wait at the same time. Stop waiting when the story's over"

I told that to myself.

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Settled my breakfast and for hours later, set off from home to Asri's house for his Hari Raya celebration, which he invited me to attend. This year's much quieter than last year. 2 or 3 of our best friends aren't around unlike last year, which they atended, Nick, Ozy and Art.

This year, only KL, Vinny and I attended.

As super nice as usual, Asri's house. Really liked the design.

This time's visit, it's super lot of people. All cramped in there and loads of people whom i do not know. Felt so strange and somehow odd.. Because it's not just my nature, not greeeting anyone I see, especially to those who are closely related to the ones I know.

Had my lunch, sat on a sofa and continued snacking as per usual.. XD

(Standard Operation Procedure.. S.O.P.)

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Not much interesting at all, stayed in Asri's "Room of Entertainment" the whole day.

Played comp, chatted, asked about each other..

Asri that funny "joker" who can't remember his NSP (Network Security Password), therefore i'm unable to use my lappy to access internet.

I just slacked, eat and watch TV. Nothing else. Borrowed his Desktop to online for awhile.

Halfway through, felt pointless going online as no one will talk to me these days.

No initia-tion by the others these days (except last night)

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Hours later, Watched "The Island". Nice show

Some great actions and nice scenes of high techies. =) (*Awed*)

Some saddening and lovable scenes.. haha.. Nothing much though.. All i know is a lot of running done since the Climax.. Overall, 3.5 out of 5. =)

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About to go off at the end of the show, Asri's mum urge us to eat again (i've ate countless rounds alr! ><)

After that, how sweet of Asri's mum to give as "Ang-Pow" because of their Hari Raya.. I just accept it in terms of appreciation and Asri's parents are really glad that we attended and came for visit, keeping close in touch.

At the end, good-o'bro Asri walked us to Admiralty station from his house. Not tiring but rather relax.

Continued chatting with them, from the regular casual to the rather in-depth ones..

Upon reaching the station,

Vinny, KL and I bade Asri goodbye and entered the station for the train

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I alighted at Yishun and headed for the interchange for another bus ride.

Reached the estate then went to 7-11 to buy another loaf of bread for tomorrow morning. Dammit. All sold out. Even the grocery.
Curses

In the end spent 2bucks for a loaf of bread that is lesser and more expensive than the usual one i bought in 7-11.

Basket.

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Home Sweet Home

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Came online and started typing at 12.03am (late by few minutes and i reached the next day..-.-)

Earlier ytd and earlier today...

Yesterday

Went to Siti house for the Hari Raya celebration which she invited W15J. Hot and sunny trip to her house which is also in Yishun (convenient).

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Her house is damn nice.

The moment we enter the house, Kubbon attacked the grapes at the instant and

said,"eh this one got seed or not?!"

Sat down somewhere snacking and watched "Shutter".

Somewhat funny but having the tiniest bit of feeling scary

(never watched it before but somehow can predict what'll happen next)

Some of them got shocked while watcing certain horror scenes.. Jazlyn almost choked while eating at the same time as watching..-.-

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Soon, we had laksa for lunch! woo hoo!

The bean sprouts, cockles, Tao Pok, Fish cake and sprig onions (is that called this way?) are being stored into various containers on a assorted tray.

With the curry in the middle ^^

It tasted so good and it wasn't too spicy at all.. Kubbon and I had bowls of it. Good job to Siti and her mum. ^^

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Next, we had dessert. Ice cream in glass with kit-kat as topping. Woot. Tasted so good and the appropriate dessert to accompany with the weather. Surprisingly, we get to eat that twice.

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Shaik and Jerome reached her house 1 or 2 hours after we've reached. But waited for so damn long for Benji-mon. He arrived 5 mins before me departure from Siti house for another friend's house for his birthday party.

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Departed from Siti house, set off for Kang Lun's house at Bendemeer. Took 857 and that bumpy long ride really made me to doze off. When i've reached Bendemeer, went to the block and took the lift up. Upon reaching, so damn many people are at the corridor. Surprisingly all the neighbours around are not bothered by it. I step out of the lift, everyone turned and look at me.

Stunned down there, thinking what happened. Stood rooted there, waved and said,"err..Hi?"

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Rather bored. i went there, Isaac and the others haven't arrived. Loads of people i didn't know..

I just took some food, ate and sat down in the living room, watching TV.

Soon, the others arrived.

Christel and her BF, Bryan, followed by Felicia, Irving and Isaac. We sat down around a table and talked

As per usual, nothing much for me to talk about so rather boring..

To sum it up for the Birthday party, i wasn't having great time but bored there.

In the end, set off for home sweet home.

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Step into my house, so damn freaking tired for the whole day's schedule. Bathed then went online on msn.

Was about to play my online game when the overnight-chat started, initiated by Raynor

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I was rather surprised that he look up for me to help which i thought everything's smooth and the best for him. Had some "Man-to-Man" talk.

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He was troubled over an issue (mainly about communication problems)

which somehow and somewhat i was pulled into

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(I intend to keep it CONFIDENTIAL for the Welfare of those who are involved)

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We chatted and I "listened" to what he have to say. Then try to aid him in certain areas.

Many things have already impacted me and was soon to be over but somehow i was being pulled into this matter.

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It's like as though i'm walking along a concrete path, halfway through, my leg's stucked in a newly formed of concrete slab which it haven't been hardened.

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I'm really lost and do not know exactly what happened. Therefore i'm not much of a help for him.

Certain issues I've already guessed all out and it happened to have 95% match to what i've guessed and expected.

Certain parts are surprising and disappointing

To be honest, I trusted him. But, i've yet to know a lot more. Therefore there are parts which i didn't quite believe it but i just gotta take it as a fact for the moment.

There are also parts which are heart-breaking. In terms of personal issues and friendship issues.

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BUT I'M FINE STILL.

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We chatted all the way till 3.10am. He have work the next day which is today, Sunday, therefore he had to sign off.

I told him the last few sentence and i hope he remembers (modified),

"Take a step whch you are approved and acknowledged for. If you stay in the same level as the other person, confusion may arouse due to different perspective and expectations, which may hurt someone on the way. Regardless between the 2 or the ones around them. Take the step and keep moving so that the other one can carry on walking in his pace, with his life. If you ever falls back, just get up again nd carry on moving ahead of the person who is still walking at the back. If you can't do it, have the other person to help you up or in the most intense circumstances, pass the baton or walk together down and not stop."

... ... turns out ... ...

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All the ones that used to be my close buddies/friends,
Are drifting apart

All the ones that used to be my classmates,
We're having difficulty meeting up once again
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The ones that use to SMS text me, MSN me and Talk to me AUTOMATICALLY,
they are not doing so anymore

The ones that looks for me for a listening ear,
Now left me at one corner to stone, nothing left to do

The ones that I like/loved (regardless items or people),
Fate is not getting us together, instead, pulling us apart.
And even further

What is not fated to be mine,
We just had to be cruelly forced to accept that it will never be mine somehow..
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Those whom I trusted,
Seems to get less trustworthy as time passes by

Those who took my nature for granted,
Started to betray and hurt me once and again and over again

Those whom I cared for,
Are not noticing it

Those who told me about themselves,
It seems turns out to be the opposite

Whatever questions you asked and the answer you received from others,

Sometimes they are doing the opposites of their answers

Not just answers, but answers that affects a scale

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At times when you need someone badly,

no one's around.

But when you are fine,

They are around.

Somehow at the wrong time

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~.::The End::.~

Darn....

Once again.. I've been busy and unable to update..since it's saturday now, 12+ am, so for now, i'm gonna pour some out about the past few days

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Sunday

Not quite a smooth day though.. but it's the best in terms of the overall weather of the day. Still recovering from my sickness back then. Dad bought some new watches.. One of them, being Mont Blanc. It's sooooooooo damn nice. Too bad my wrist's skinny. Can't really fit me well.

Rather boring and nothing much interesting except for losing my green bottle somewhere in Singapore (not knowing where i left it in which place). All i know is that, I've to dig out money once again to get a new bottle for replacement.. *haiz*

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Monday

Just a day before our 2 days holiday of the week.. We had communication module and it's rather fun though. We had a debate going on, suggested by some relieve faci for Sharon. Dunno why, but it's a smooth day. Quite smooth till after school. Once again, i'm left out. Stoned all day long.. Can't exactly remember what i did after school. Or did i join any friends for anything? bah can't really remember. I think i stayed back with Nan shun. Or didn't I?

=S

All i know my mood was rather down since the start of the week. After losing my bottle and followed on by various reasons.

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Tuesday

Purely Weather-bonded day. It's raining and finally cooling. But somehow at the wrong time..-.-

Had a class outing with W35K, but only a handful of them. If i'm not wrong, there's only 8 people who managed to turned up. Poor Carmen had some family issues, therefore she's unable to join us.

Early in the morning, I met up with Raynor, Erin, Raynz and Kerry. I was rather late, settling some households before meeting them up. We train-ed to Harbourfront and waited there for the rest such as the Couple, Jackson and Yan Nee, and finally, Sir Drexler Ong..

LOL

First time met Yan Nee's Boyfriend, Jackson. Nice and friendly guy to get along well with. Looks sporty but unfortunately he didn't really join sports in school..

Then we went to ViVo's foodcourt, I accompanied them as they wanted to have breakfast. Halfway through, shopped for some big bottles of mineral water (so damn cheap!). Then, off we go to Sentosa!

We were looking forward to Sun-tanning on that day, but unfortunately, the weather was suiting me at the wrong time..

But we manage to play a few good rounds of Beach Volleyball just before the rain arrived.

After waiting for some time for the rain to subside, we went back to the beach and carry on playing Volleyball. Nothing much but just the fun.

Skies cleared, Mr Helio's up (the Sun).. We went to tanned up a bit. I didn't quite bother to apply the lotion and just "grilled" myself up under the Sun. Time passed by, i fell asleep without noticing until Raynz woke me up with a weird nickname.

We went to Vivo after the wash up. Parted ways with Drexler and Erin, while the rest of us carried on journeyed through the mall till we reach Carl's Jr for a meal.

I didn't think too much and assumed that this particular meal was lunch (we didn't eat lunch and i was damn hungry).

After eating my set of meal, i carried on finishing the Spicy beef fries (damn. that's spicy. THe back of my head heated up..-.-)

Carried on by another burger from Kerry's meal as she couldn't finish..

I'm all filled up. (i still gotta go home for dinner, which was 3-4hrs after the meal at Carl's Jr)

Lucky i'm around or else their money would be wasted for nothing but donation for Carl's Jr.

After Meal, Raynor and I, tagged along the girls who went to shop around.. Jeez! Kerry is one scary shopper.. Lol haha.. Raynz went to buy some clothes too.

End of day: Go home of course. As per normal, train-ed then bus-ed.

Noticed: Kerry's mood swinged from the solemn mode in the day to the hype mode during shopping, then back to solemn-but-better while going back home.

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Wednesday

Nothing interesting and it is a surprisingly boring day. Everything's so as per normal, except that i went for the earlier training session and I had dinner out with my Parents. Shopped around Toa Payoh Central then went home.

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Thursday

Went to school rather early as i somehow manage to wake up early from my bed. Very sickening day as i had Cognitive module. All about Paradoxes. Almost needed assistance from Panadols and needed Drips at SGH.

Just because of the few minutes late submission of presentation materials, my team had to do extra RJ, in order to have at least a slight bit of chance to get an A. (sickening. felt like condemning and damning everyone)

Had Polo meeting during breakout 2 with Great-o'Johnny da Capt'n. Sick and tired of him and yet, still gotta attend his displinary meeting.. Deepens my mood. Sickening.

After school had polo training. Damn disappointing. Training hasn't been constant, why don't they cancel it? so that i can attend my swimming training. At the same time, I can accompany with Raynz to Toa Payoh, as she visits her grandma. Then maybe after my training, I'm able to accompany Raynz home.

Water polo wasn't a smooth one too, as i'm damn freaking tired of playing it, as in physically and literally, don't feel like playing, due to mood. (i even got poked in the eye during a mini-match. "~!@#$%^&*()_+{}:"<>?`-=[]\;',./")

Feel like quitting polo RIGHT NOW AND NOT JOIN THE POL-LITE WATER POLO MATCH

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Friday

Science module, supposedly expected to be a better day. Went to class early once again.

For the whole day, i supposedly able to get the logic and the explanation behind the problem statement. Somehow during meeting 3, there was a bit of confusion and i'm lost for words to present my part in the slides. Totally helpless. Asked "MY" and she said she dunno how help explain. Then i used whatever i know just to help present it.

Totally sickening.

My favourite and my forte, yet i'm not doing it well. I'm so goner. After school, i totally have no mood to talk at all.

Went to meet up with Serena to pass her her tapes which i received from her friends. So happy to see Kubbon, Meishan, Sharon and Serena. It's been a long time and i miss W15J badly. Miss those times we were working together, helping superbly closely together to help each other to get an A (not like now in W35K, all in a killing spree, almost to prevent each ther from scoring A)

Followed on, went for some fun, playing badminton with Drexler, Raynor, Wei Liang, Raynz and finally Erin (never play at all due to footwear).

Just before leaving RP, went to bathe then back to meet up with them to set off for Causeway point.

Accompanied them while they are having dinner at Mos Burger and chatted..

In the end.. same answer.. HOME SWEET HOME. All just parted ways and went home..

And so, i've landed at home, now typing this blog.