Boring...

Haiz.. Why must all this holiday be so boring? I just can't stand it though. I'm currently having my FINAL week of my 3 week holiday.. so dam boring!! >.< ._." Life as a RP student enjoys school than anything else. Tht's how i feel. This long stretch of holidays there's isn't anything else for me to get occupied at all! Gaming? nah no thnks.. somehow all the games kinda boring though... nth more interesting than schooling and having fun with my buddies and frens..

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All i could do is..:

Wake

Eat

Surf web

MSN-ing

Play Piano

Eat

Swim

Eat

Sleep

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RP water polo's getting worse. Management of training schedules and understanding of their own polo mates are not there.. Nvm.. To hell with Polo. I'll jus head towards my ultimate goal which is set since a kid. Swim towards the ultimate Olympic Dream.. Champion~ Like Phelps.. LOL. He's darn cool. Saw his diet, (i can finish it w/o doubt). LOL. For real. Really. Swear. I hope to achieve my peak again. Then from then on, i can really boosts all the way. I really need my peak as a source of motivation.. Haiz..

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These days, not quite in terms with my mum.. She's a bit naggy once again and she's always there to raise unnecessary issues up all time. Short-tempered me, really really stir up loads of quarrels for the sake of rights, justice and logic................................................To hell with tht.

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All these days, boring holidays. Holidays are always on the constant to drift me away from the reality to the World of Dreamland and Thoughts. But most of the time, it jus drift all the way and makes me think back about the one that I loved (though it had nvr progressed and being expressed at all). When i start thinking of her, flashbacks about the pasts occurs and somehow i would start to feel the tinge of sadness, regrets, loneliness, emotionless but somehow abit of frustration, anger and hatred somehow.. due to various sort of reasons and unknowns.................................. What's is it really like being in love? What's it like being loved? How is it like being in a relationship? What exactly happens when engaged in a relationship?

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I'm not dying to get engaged in a relationship. But it's just the curiosity and the feelings that i experience when i start thinking of her. I'm seriously lost. sometimes i think back. Is this world REAL? I'm always trying to contact her, trying to make the move although it's hard. But she's always "not allowing" it to happen though. Well since it's that way, i can't really help it though. I guess i jus have to slowly loosen my fingers of her hands and bid her goodbye. Hope we'll meet or get together some day, some other time.. I just find it rather hard to accept that whether she did wear the necklace i gave her. I really spent alot time preparing it and really really wanna treasure the relationship between us. Even if it's just friends, hope it will be something to remind each other about it. But it all seems ironic that she did accept it willingly and wear it.. I dunno. My mind's currently in a whirl now, thinking back and typing it all out.. I just really really like her. But i dunno how to express it. i'm really tactless.. i seriously dunno wad to do. But i'm thinking back. Must i really need to have a relationship now? I'm really lost like as though stuck in the middle of two dimensions. If she's attach, i'd give her my blessing. I'd be happy for her. Just let it go and it'll be all over between us. No matter what, i just wish to get the misunderstandings and make things clear about what is happening between us.

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Still, all the best for her Os.

yOwZaT

~yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~

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Saturday-Sunday's BBQ with W15J is the best~ Thank you guys for giving me a wonderful memorable moment and the best BBQ eva. hees =) Especially to I.C.T.s, Jazlyn, Yong Tai, Peixuan, See Mun, Chong Han and Gerald... Sorry for the failure in the secret mission. Don't worry too much la. ah?

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When i first reach East Coast, first thing i did there, is to walk from D section to B section of BBQ pits with Yong Tai... walao.. all thanks to kubbon. Yong tai asked him about which BBQ pit Reg Number, KuKuBBon told him the reg. no. of the Carpark. We walked till B section, not even passing by "C1"BBQ PIT (meaning not existing) (our pit's C16)..

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I.C.T.s and Yong Tai together, did the Manly-Job, such that we carried stuffs up and down, and went through "all the hardships" setting up the...................... BBQ stove with charcoals and fire. Just then...one by one classmates/friends came.. I was starved till i almost got gastric for the first time. I made the first move (hehehe...i ate alot at one shot)..

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So many chats here and there... Photo Shot, eating, cycling (we rented bikes)..etc.. Everyone watched Kubbon and Meishan "in awe" as they rode the doubleseated or the single seated bike together around the park. So lovely...LOL...

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dUMBY bon... Nice try but no good la... the roasted marshmallow that he was attempting, he roasted it and pulled off the outer layer... in the end, leaving one small white gooey lump on the stick... what's there to eat and taste? haiz... nvm.. but good idea for making such marshmallow..

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Night falls, the full moon up in the empty navy blue sky. the moonlight was so strong such that it casted it's blurry reflection on the sea. Ah...imagine that... Soon, we are preparing the "main course" of the BBQ. But i'm busy do my way for the marshmallow...

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Cycling round...Up and down the park, going in pairs or more, ah... the feeling is very nice ya noe? it's like.. at night, in the peaceful coastal park, windy, cycling with ur frens... watching the distant lights of the boats and ships which are out in the sea from far... Then at times, returning back to the BBQ PIT and carrying on doin my cooking... COoking's jus so fun.. HAHA.. It's just so fun to cook... heee... Then later on... rather late at night... everyone's still quite fresh and awake. i carried on Roasting marshmallow for everyone. I manage to find a method, such that one normal plain white marshmallow could be roasted till it expand in size, golden brown in certain parts, soft, melted and sweet within... Had a whole lot fun roasting them with Jazlyn.. Haha... Just then, she too helped out roasting them too and eating it. Roasting it for each other and for the others..haha.. so many things to do...

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All these things turned out alot better than what i've expected to be so boring in the late at night..

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As we proceed on till 4-5am, al of us started packing up and washing up.. Just a brief one.. just wash abit here and there in a public toilet somewhere and that's it..

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Soon, daybreak. We cycled to the Macdonalds and had breakfast there.. I'm freaking starving again.. LOL.. Spent all my notes and a few coins for my breakfast... Returned the bikes to the shop and time for HOME SWEET HOME!!!

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On the way home, that is when i start to feel tired. LOL.. when i reached home, i bathe then slept at 11am till 3pm, woke up for lunch.. Then went home again, sleep, till the next morning (forgot that i missed dinner(no one told me abt it. so i didnt bother)).

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Total Sleep hours: 16. LOL.

Past-Present-Future

Ah. Yoz. Updates of the late and the latest. LOL
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Ah receiving some nice medals these few months. Gold for 50m back and silver for 50m breaststroke in the Intra-constituency meet. And recently, inter-constituency, Bronze for 50m backstroke, silver for Free relay (could've been gold (1st leg of free)) and lastly, gold for I.M. relay (i'm in the 1st leg of backstroke). The free relay was damn fun. I paced with some COE guy ( i won him abit but in the end, he won me by a touch)
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nice match anyways. but the free relay was a total mess up for the officials. There's a DQ in the winning team and they didn't notice it. Then in the end, my team ended up 2nd for the event, losing out by a few seconds from the champ team.
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It have been a wonderful time during the inter-constituency match. being back with my old friends and seeing the grown-up "chilli padis" of the past. ah. they have changed a lot. indeed. Surprisingly, i met someone whom i've not seen for years. I do not know when did she return to SG from CN, besides, she's living somewhere around Yishun too! but i dunno where (dun care anyways). anyway, she changed alot. doens't look like a chinese from china too.
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I met the Croatia and the Italian Waterpolo teams. dammit. they are just like giants! Freakishly tall. got the shock, hell out of ma-life. the tallest guy can reach up to the ceiling of the corridor outside my classroom, and the tallest lady in the ladies team is taller than me by at least.. by a head and shoulder? shortest is only the same height as me.. My friends had the swimmer, Michael Phelps and the rest of the swimmers in the US team's signature. his whole yellow pool buoy is being marked by the lot of signatures. *envy*
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Life in RP, as per usual. These days have been stressful, both mental and physically. Almost fell sick for the second time during the weekends. My birthday in the past few weeks, 26th july, have been a great day for me. For the first time hanging out and celebrating with my buddies. and i'm very glad to meet someone, a gal, new friend (for the moment or maybe friend foreva only...). haha anyways, it's been quite fun just by hanging around a particular area in the town.
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I'm trying to get back to swimming, for frequent training and reach my peak once again. I wanted to aim for the youth olympics (as what 2 coaches of mine are hoping me to aim for it). but too bad, the 3 of us are rather W-O-L-S. the limit for YOG is 18 the max. and by the time for it, i'm alr 19.. So sad... T.T really really sad. i guess just have to aim for the actual real one.. =X. Seriously, i've thought of it before. hee hee. THink about it. if others can do it, why can't i? all of us are humans too. there's no such thing as i can't qualify for olympics as them. it's jus the matter of time. but apparently, there's no time for me to wait anymore as i'm full fledge 17 already.
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Well well.. my dear crush. She tried calling me before. 3 missed calls made. they were made when i was sleeping with my handphone charged in the living room. i tried calling her the next day. but, she never answered. no replys from calls nor SMSes. dunno wadda hell's going on. I hope i can meet her up some day and get every thing cleared once and for all. But maybe she's busy with her O level. But i believe she have time for freedom and relax like late at nite, weekends or public holidays. but she didn't reply during the time i called back the next day after she made those missed calls (it was during the june hols). So i guess her ignorance is just too much, so i guess i have to cut down on bothering about her. I'm not going to give up on her even though it may seems tiring and trying to tempt me to let go of her. At she should clarify with me, at most, we'd just end as normal friends.
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To let everyone know, i'm still carrying on with my life, heading forward. Swimming, Sleep, Study, Supreme results and snacking being my priorities now ^^ The Ss. without her, i may feel empty or i've lost something. but it is not going to obstruct my to achieving my current target and goals. Even though she may be important. Let's just let nature takes it's course, let the river flow and run. let the wind rush through the meadows.